Where did summer go?
Actually, where did 2013 go? This year has been a blur unlike anything I’ve ever felt before, and it’s not entirely due to alcohol! I feel like I need a pause button or I’ll never catch up.
There’s tons I need to write and record but where’s the time? You think you have all the time in the world to do everything you want to do and say everything you want to say, but I can assure you…you don’t.
Right now we’re in the middle of a very alarming medical scare (not for myself or Justin). It feels like it’s been coming at me for awhile, but I’ve made myself so willfully blind to the whole situation that even typing it out here hurts my heart. It’s basically a waiting game on tests and doctors, but the cold truth of the matter is that optimism fails me now. I don’t think I’ll come back from this completely in tact. Adulthood has so resolutely slapped me in the face that I’m entirely sure I’m not the same person I was a month ago. Two weeks ago.
I’m almost positive it’s not the end of the world, but it is the end of the world I used to live in. Don’t, not even for a second, fool yourself into thinking you have time. You don’t.